I know I haven’t done much of a job at updating lately, but it feels like life has been coming at me at such a rate that I can hardly think my thoughts, much less organize them into a coherent blog post. But since it’s these periods that are often later the most enjoyable for me to reflect back on, I thought I would jot down a few notes. Gonna do this stream of consciousness “My Summer Vacation” style, though.
- Career stuff is similar to dating in that sometimes it just all falls into place and you wonder why you were torturing yourself with all those other options. I have been ruminating over where to move next for probably the last year, but suddenly it just clicked that, hey, actually I don’t want to leave. It’s OK to just do what you want instead of what Everyone Says.
- Said realization makes me really, really happy.
- I still reserve the right to change my mind later.
- Sometimes I was really in doubt about this whole PhD process- it can be a giant exhausting morass when you’re wading through the middle of it, and certainly nothing like any of the linear schooling periods I have gone through before (I discovered this comic this week that I think is a great summary of what a PhD really means: http://matt.might.net/articles/phd-school-in-pictures/). But the postdoc interviewing process has made me realize that I am a totally different person than I was three years ago when I first started. I’m comfortable taking leadership roles and offering my “expert” opinion and defending my analyses to statisticians. This might not sound revolutionary, but suddenly the idea of leading my own research team with my own ideas feels not sooo far off, something I’ve always found tremendously exciting.
- Getting older coincides with knowing yourself better and recently I’ve found that it has been affecting a lot of my decision making (in a positive way, let’s hope). For example, for probably the first two years I lived in Europe I travelled like a crazy person to any spot I was invited to. Now I know better what I like and what just isn’t worth the hassle and the extra carbon footprint.
- In fact, I’m pretty proud of myself that as far as I remember I have avoided any and all recreational flights for all of 2017- all of my holidays have either been via train or tacked onto a flight I would have had to take for work regardless.
- However, I can’t really can’t act like this was some selfless resolution. I’ve really had to buckle down to finish this whole PhD thing and would have turned down a lot of trips regardless. Looming deadlines have a funny way of curtailing holiday plans.
- I desperately want to take an extended period of time off after completing my PhD and before embarking on a new adventure, but it might be hard to finagle. So I’m reminding myself that having a great job trumps exotic vacations any day 🙂
- I’m just a little bit scared of the new position. I’m going to be learning a whole lot.
That’s it, a little sneak peek into my running brain as I’m taking a break from writing up my latest manuscript at 7pm on a Monday. Wish me luck, there’s a whole lot to do in the next few months!